As I sit here with a little over an hour to go before I head to the hospital to begin the process of bringing another little life into this world. I shed a few selfish tears for myself and my Maddo. Tears for me because this phase in my life will be over, Scott and I have always said we only want two children and so I am putting my child bearing years behind me. Although sad, I am also relieved since my first pregnancy I was so sick and this one with the pre-term labor and all of the pain, I can relish in the fact that I will never have the stress of being pregnant again. Then I cried for Maddo, who really didn't understand that we will be bringing a baby home and that yesterday and last night were the last moments that she would have her Mommy and Daddy all to herself. Currently, she is not at all excited about welcoming a baby into our family, but I know that she will eventually adapt and will make a great big sister!!
Although I am nervous about the induction, I have prayed about it and have actually found peace in turning this upcoming event over to God, knowing he already knows the outcome and will not give me anything more than I can bear. I pray for Scott and I today to become closer and to relish in this day of bringing Aiden into our lives and pray that it makes us that much closer as a couple as well. I also pray that we will be able to get through this transition into becoming parents of two smoothly and show each other the love and understanding we will need as we open this new chapter in our lives. I pray for Maddo who will become a big sister and pray that she finds contentment in welcoming Aiden into our family and sharing her Mommy and Daddy. I pray for myself that as I become a mother of two that I will find time to enjoy them individually as well as together, and that I will find overwhelming joy and unconditional love for both of my children as they grow and provide Scott and I with memories that we will cherish in our hearts forever!! Amen....
Let this journey begin :)
